I think it’s the scariest place in the world to be! There is no control and everything seems out of order. You cannot control others and you cannot control where you are, it’s frightening! I, personally, would rather not be there, but I have to be. I would give anything to speed ahead a few years and then be in that place. I could look back and see that everything worked out okay!
And now I may be freed from that place but I will think about it a lot. I do not want others in that place and the guidelines are that he can’t for 180 days! I’m talking about the passenger seat of the car as my 16 year old son, Joel, gets his drivers license! The passenger seat is a very scary place to be, yet I have to do it. I logged in the practice hours for him and have done a lot of “training” from that spot. And last Saturday we went to get his drivers license. It is a “probationary” license, thank God, and has restrictions placed on him until he is 21. I know many of you have been there and done that!
The BMV local license branch was packed as usual and we drew our number. When called up to the desk, we had everything in order and we went through everything in pretty good order. I’ve written about the BMV before and how some of the employees can have certain behavior characteristics that come with their job! But when I noticed the clerks fingernails had IU designs on it, I knew we were in! As an IU graduate I complimented her fingernail polish and she smiled and was so excited because the basketball team is playing so well right now. We chatted about all of that as she processed our forms and we were in and out in no time.
Life is full of scary moments and I’m pretty sure fear holds us back from a lot of life. I finally figured I have to let him go and I have to let him experience this on his own. I entrust my son, Joel, to God. Every parent fears these moments of letting go but we have to. I think it’s a really good analogy of all of life! What would it be like to let go of some fears today? What would it be like to trust God that in a few years looking back everything will have worked out?? To fully live as God intended we really have no choice. We have to let go, we have to trust, and we have to know that everything will work out okay! God bless you this week and always,
NLS Spiritual Director